Internship Diary: Gaining Confidence

Interning at PATTERN was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made, and I’m one to make some bad decisions. Ever since I discovered PATTERN magazine sophomore year of college, I’ve been obsessed and dreamed of becoming an intern there some day. When I applied I sort of did it on a whim, never thinking I’d actually be picked. The next thing I knew I was getting emailed to come in for an interview. I was so excited to even be considered but never imagined that I’d be sitting here at the end of my internship typing this to you right now.

The internship was everything I expected and more. I was given so many incredible opportunities throughout the semester from helping execute the launch party to styling my first photoshoot. PATTERN gave me a clearer outlook on what I hope to accomplish in my future. When I first started, I was told that I would be pushed out of my comfort zone, that I was responsible for keeping myself busy, and finding work to do. I thought it’d be like any other time that I was supposed to keep myself busy with work at other places I’ve been. However, it was nothing like that. At first I was really scared that I wouldn’t succeed and that I wouldn’t be able to find something to do. After I got comfortable in the office and with the other interns it felt more like I was becoming something, something that I’ve been working towards for a long time.

Finding things to do came easier and I was spitting out ideas like crazy. PATTERN has done more than just allow me to intern for them. I’ve gained confidence, not only in myself but also in my work. They’ve taught me that no matter how hard things seem to get or how confusing a situation is, there is always a solution no matter how silly it seems at the time. I learned to work with models, photographers, designers, and many more important people in our industry. I also learned how to take my big dreamer ideas and transform them into something realistic that I’m able to execute right now.

I learned how to ask questions, ask for help, and oddly enough how to take better measurements. I am so happy to say I was given the opportunity to contribute to PATTERN and hope to continue to help out as much as I can. Today, I will leave my last day as an intern here more knowledgeable about the world as a whole, inspired, and looking forward to what the future holds.

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